Saturday, September 15, 2018

Love-Hate

I have discovered that I now have a love-hate relationship with inanimate objects.

The ones I hate are ones I have never really liked but it a part of our everyday lives. You can't go anywhere without them being there. They are in our homes, in your vehicles, in malls and restaurants. At home, over time I have downsized them and only placed them where necessary.

Recently I had to spend time in a hotel room, they are everywhere! In the bathroom, which is common but wall to wall over the counter, they covered the closet doors and then a full length one in the main room. Yuk lol

So, what have I come to hate instead of just dislike - mirrors. As far back as I can remember I have disliked the way I look. Whether it be my weight, my height, my eyes or my hair, I don't like what looks back at me from a mirror. Then there is the old adage that mirrors lie. Does that mean that the image is actually better or worse than what I see? Never did figure that out.

Growing up I was always both taller and bigger than the norm. The charts that created the norm were set by age. Every time I went for a physical I was told I was overweight. It got to the point that I stopped caring and started eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I stopped most physical activity. I didn't see the point as no matter what I had done in the past I was always told I failed.

Recently I made some changes to my diet and I'm trying to get my activity level back up. I bought a bathroom scale and then started actually stepping on it. All the articles I read said to always use the same scale to track your weight.

My scale has now become my friend. I have started to look forward to my check-in with it. The numbers have gone down, not always, but mostly. So, it has become the inanimate object I love.

While I was at the hotel I could not help seeing my reflection in the overabundance of mirrors. I do not like what I saw. I am feeling better every day but my shape still upsets me. I can home and checked in with my scale. Numbers went down again, which was good. I need to reshape me so I can stop avoiding mirrors and cameras. Pictures are also on my 'no' list lol.

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