Sunday, July 29, 2018

"I don't regret my past, I just regret the time I've wasted on the wrong people." - Unknown

This quote got me thinking. Do I really regret anything from my past? The people, the places, the 'roads not taken' or the roads that were taken, how did they affect who I am today?  I can look back and see clearly the crossroads at each critical point in my past. I know the results of the paths I choose and the people that I spent my time with.

What if I would not have moved to western Canada? What if I had spent more time studying? What if I had seen the value of attending college and then University right after high school? What if I had been a better judge of character? What if I had moved to a different province when the opportunity arose? Who would I be today?
I know where I am right now. I know what I wish was different. I know who I would like to have back in my life. I also know who I am glad is no longer in my life. I can look back with both joy and sadness at all the time that has past before this very moment.

Regret - it is not a valid way to spend time. I will admit that I am not proud of all the decisions I made but I do not regret them. Every bump, every decision, every person I met, every job I accepted or rejected brought me here. Right here.

I have a family that I love. Sure, there are things that could be better, things that I 'wish' I had but do I regret the road that brought me here, no. The roads that I took gave me my children. If one thing was changed in my past, from the people I interacted with to the places I traveled, I might not have one or more of my children.
They complete my days and fulfill my spirit.

If regret has to enter into my life, it is not due to the people I spent time with, but that I don't have more to give.

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